HAPPY 7 MONTH MY bb boy!
"mummy love love love love uuuuuuuu"
time really pass so fast.
my little boy have grown up so much &
some people even ask me to let dylan on diet! WTH!
but i think baby look fat is a good things what!
and they look cute when they are chubby.
i still remember when i give birth to dylan ........
baby: why is his head so big!!!!
me: where where? i can't see!!!
THE fcuking midwife: (silent) don even bother to explain.
me: take photo, faster! i want to see now!
baby: (show me the photo)
me: (CRY STRAIGHT AWAY)
baby: (is fcuking lost and dunno what to said)
THE FCUKING midwife: (still don bother to explain)
baby faster call MIL ask her how? why baby head so big?
baby: mummy ask you not to cry as long as baby is healthy can already.
i think i cry for like 2hour.
so after the FCUKING mid-wife go off..
the GOOD nurse came in .
the GOOD nurse : why are you crying?
me : i shake my head and said nothing.
the GOOD nurse : isit too happy to see your baby?
me : (silent)
then baby came in and the good nurse went out.
baby : don cry k? healthy can le is our son ma.
at the point of time i really feel like killing myself!
why i will give birth to a monster!!!
me : go and ask the whoever why baby head like that!!!(SHOUT)
baby : ok! (walk out)
around 10min baby came in together with the nurse.
the GOOD nurse : every baby is like this and within 24 hour
it will be back to normal.
me : really?
the GOOD nurse : yes, no worries!
after listening to what she said i feel better
but tears just flow down, i try my very best to close my eyes
and shut my brain but the min i think of "is the nurse trying to bluff me?"
my tears flow down again.
and now ......... when i think back im really a bad mother.
how can i call my own son a MONSTER?
what the hell is i thinking about?
dearest dylan boy, mummy love you& always!
P.S
my sweetest drugssss..
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